Last night! Last night! Last night(:

Well well, Nabilah, Hanisah, Amirah, Anne and I went for Chemistry lesson rather late this morning. I mean what's the point of going if I already predicted that one worksheet of his would take an hour. We attended the lesson only for half an hour, but who bothers. Anyway, Anne and I headed off to Central's bus stop as we intended to make our way to her house first.

Left for Whitesands around lunchtime and we had our lunch at KFC. Zul was like so unreachable. Anne had to ring Nicholas up during their games, asking him to get Zul to turn on his phone. Minutes later, I called Zul on his cellphone, only to realise that it was Adrie who picked up the call. Adrie was as if huh-ing throughout the call. He even deceived Zul that it was his mom on the line. Haha, not funny, Adrie.

Like forever, it took Zul to arrive. To my surprise, Amanda turned up without notice. Siska came to! Haha. And I saw Amin and his friend, again.

When Nicholas arrived, Syed and Anne were already about to leave.

The second step(:

It may have been a pretty pleasant day, but well, there were disappointments too. Awww..


It just dawned on me that I may not be very sure of what do I really want to pursue. Onlookers may have a clearer overview of the situation, but me, myself have a better inner understanding of my heart. I will not rule out heeding advices, but after all, the final decision lies within my hands.

I somehow ponder what have I just rambled about.

I love.

Thursday, 26th July 2007:

I am as if going on an eating binge or something. Simply gorging myself with food and more food lately. Well, upset, that word should fit into my sentence.


Friday, 27th July 2007:

Cheer up, Shayne. That should be sufficient to explain your abrupt behaviour in class today. It wasn't intentional, so please don't mull over it. Do heed my advices and I know you will pull through. Don't let jealousy get the better of you. Everything would turn out really fine for you(:


Here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
That's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

Even if my world is on the verge of dying, and a trillion of tear drops trickled profusely down the moon's eyes, I know I would be fine. Because I love you, still. Despite of your hurtful words that leaves my heart bleeding, I still love you, all the same. I have tried fighting against my feelings, but I lost the battle. I was defeated. In high hopes that things would lie down in place, they just ignored my wishes and swerved out of the road. When my heart just sunk into a bottomless pit..

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you, endlessly

Yellowcard
Only one

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you.
You are my only one.
Made my mistakes, let you down.
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long.
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone.


Secondhand Serenade
It's Not Over

Why is it over?
We had the chance to make it.
Now it's over, it's over.
I wish that I could take it back, but it's over.
I lose my sense of wrong and right.
I cry, I cry.
I'm shaking from the pain that's in my head.
I just want to crawl into my bed and throw away the life that I led.
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart.
You're breaking my, you're breaking my heart.
Don't tell that we will never be together.


Simple Plan
Perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside.
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away.
And it feels like you don't care anymore.


Avril Lavigne
When You're Gone

When you walk away I count the steps that you take.
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you.
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too.
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it okay.
I miss you.
I've never felt this way before.
Everything that I do reminds me of you.
They smell just like you, I love the things that you do.


These lyrics just summarise my feelings. I love you.

When I was younger,
it felt as though I owned the world.
Holding my mind above the sky,
roaming around each inch of earth,
wherever my legs would bring me to.

Moshing in concerts,
hooking up those whores.
A Casanova, I ever was.
Frisky, frivolous, a sick state of mind.

And life, sailing along the breeze,
with everything just beneath my feet.

Now that I'm older,
absurd misfortunes befell on me.
Robbing my happiness away from me.
Distraught and helpless,
that's all I can feel.

Relying on inventions just to live.
A flair for art,but a statue myself.
My pride was trampled a thousand times,
being mocked as 'The Frozen One'.

An unsignificant withered leaf,
a beating heart that deemed so dead.


All right, the above is my poem for our Literature June holiday assignment.


Hey, I still love you. It has been a long time since the day we've broken up, and things have changed. But my feeling for you remains. I love you, and yes I really do.

Okay, some Friday when we held our NCC Day in school. Eventually, it was decided that the entire contingent shall march in. Hanan and I were like jealous. Hah, but anyway, we raised the state and school's flag. Gee, a total screw up for me.


Another random Saturday, went to HQ for NCC Day training. This time, Adam was here as the guys' flag bearer. Alpha 2's sirs were there, apart from Sir Hamdan. A pity. Sun burnt, sun burnt, sun burnt. Siska made us howl with laughter, I mean it's like we just cracked up. Few of us wanted to travel across the parade ground but seeing many cadets marching across, we decided to march in our PRCS style. We hooked our arms together are walked in steps with the side people swinging their arms. Sir Syahiid and others were like laughing their heads off. Hahaha. We approached the medic with hopes of getting sun burnt cream, but all he could offer was antiseptic cream. Lol.

On our way up to the ladies to get dressed in our No. 1, I bumped into Pandang Ke Hadapan again! Heh, not literally.

It's like every week, some of us would go home with different people, and this time, we went back with the Springfield guys, all for the sake of my dear Siska. Lol.


Another unknown Tuesday, for NCC training, Ma'am instructed us to do PDS. I am a failure in that, seriously. Drat. Following week, we arranged a time after school to do PDS, in preparations for AOH performance selection round. I cannot recall who else were there, but I am aware that Siska, Ahmad, Albin, Mustaqim, Shazni, Ain, Hui Bin were present. Ahmad smells so good and girlie. I wore his watch and after I removed it, my wrist smelt like him! Heh.


There was this amazing day when I saw Spec Course's Hadi, CSM, and Zheng Hao. Then I also saw Helio and Clayder. Awesome..


My beloved 8th July, as usual, we started with our training\rehearsals. I was the most unfortunate cadet living on this earth ever. Like my COC, I always managed to stay away from the first rank after sizing, but when it's the last and actual sizing, I am placed in front. Drat. Not the first time already! Then I requested for a change, but nah, not approved.

Sir Syahiid and Sir Alvin were there, like of course. Awww.. During our long, long break, Latifah and I stood at the forth floor's corridor, gazing at the BEAUTIFUL SCENERY. So gorgeous! Haha, and adorable.

In my opinion, my performance for NCC Day was much better than COC. Birthday song was sung repeatedly by our GOH. I love, and love the GOHs dearly. We are like the best, hahaha.

I really missed those trainings we had. Each training may not be easy or relaxed, but all of us, are the ones that bring up our spirits. It is sad to end these trainings. God, it is fun! With all due respect, NCC is the best(:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!


13th July 2007:
The second Black Friday is like meant to be a joyous day for me! Haha.

Anyway, after I met the OBS people, I went on to Whitesands just to meet up with Anne. Nicholas and the both of us went to Downtown then off to the beach.


15th July 2007:
Yesterday was a wonder and my sweetest pie. Anne, Amanda, Beth and Anne's dad, Mr Ricky Chew, and I were on the way to his restaurant and bar, Giraffe, when we saw Joakim! Heh, cutie.

Let the pictures do the talking for the day!



Okay, just a picture first. Many more, but well, some other day then.